It's funny, if I were setting an expectation or a standard I certainly set the bar low enough. I explain why I was hesitant and the gap between posts are a good example of what I meant about not having time or things to say to really outwardly promote the fact that I, indeed, have a blog.
Anyway, here is a compendious history about me.
I am what they used to call a "Third Culture Kid." I'm sure they are now using a different term much like they changed the term, First, Second and Third World Countries to Developed Nations and Developing Nations. I guess certain countries got their feelings hurt when they called them Third World, as if they hadn't made the cut to be in the First World. Since I've already digressed, I might as well add that I Googled it and apparently the more modern term is Transnational Child. That makes it sound rather posh. The fact of the matter is that I was born and grew up in Colombia, South America to American parents. I lived in Colombia until I was 12 when we had to move back to the USA because my brother would have had to serve in the military because he also was born in Colombia. If being an adolescent isn't confusing enough on it's own try moving to another country. I think was further complicated this move was that growing up being American was considered bad. I wanted to be Colombian (and not just in nationality because I already had that) so bad that I completely rejected my American heritage. That probably wouldn't have been a problem if we had stayed in Colombia until I was an adult.
However, as a 12 year old many of my formidable "identity" years were in the US. I began to identify with the part of me that was from the USA. This was very confusing for me. Needless to say I had identity issues clear until my 20s. Which, is really not that uncommon but I think with most teens it's less complicated because you don't have nationality questions and the guilt of abandoning one culture or the other.
My parents are and were amazing parents. They were missionaries in Colombia and they have spent their entire lives serving others. Even now, they live their lives for others and they are a constant model of people who leave their thumb print on the world. However, as a teen, like most teens, I thought they were stupid and I knew everything. I rebelled in a big way and was very self-destructive. I decided that I didn't really want to believe in God or anything else and wanted to do the sex, drugs and rock and roll thing. It was a dark period of my life. It took me years to really come around and really understand God.
I never questioned God existence but mostly if He was good. Not unlike many people I struggled with understanding his goodness and seeing horrible things happen. The question in my mind was always well, where was God? I saw God as indifferent and impersonal. It took me a long time to reconcile my view of life and who God was.
Although I had personal encounters with him I still didn't have a relationship until I was well into my 20s. I believe God saved me from drinking myself into oblivion by making it impossible for me to go to secular college. I joined the workforce right after high school until I realized that I wanted so much more with my life. I wanted to put my thumb print on the world and do something that really matters and benefited more then just myself. So I left the US and my comfy world behind and pursued God and the life I dreamed of.
Here is my small bit of history on life. There are massive amounts of details I could add particularly when it comes to my thoughts and views of God, life and other mysteries but hey what would I write about later?
Anyway, here is a compendious history about me.
I am what they used to call a "Third Culture Kid." I'm sure they are now using a different term much like they changed the term, First, Second and Third World Countries to Developed Nations and Developing Nations. I guess certain countries got their feelings hurt when they called them Third World, as if they hadn't made the cut to be in the First World. Since I've already digressed, I might as well add that I Googled it and apparently the more modern term is Transnational Child. That makes it sound rather posh. The fact of the matter is that I was born and grew up in Colombia, South America to American parents. I lived in Colombia until I was 12 when we had to move back to the USA because my brother would have had to serve in the military because he also was born in Colombia. If being an adolescent isn't confusing enough on it's own try moving to another country. I think was further complicated this move was that growing up being American was considered bad. I wanted to be Colombian (and not just in nationality because I already had that) so bad that I completely rejected my American heritage. That probably wouldn't have been a problem if we had stayed in Colombia until I was an adult.
However, as a 12 year old many of my formidable "identity" years were in the US. I began to identify with the part of me that was from the USA. This was very confusing for me. Needless to say I had identity issues clear until my 20s. Which, is really not that uncommon but I think with most teens it's less complicated because you don't have nationality questions and the guilt of abandoning one culture or the other.
My parents are and were amazing parents. They were missionaries in Colombia and they have spent their entire lives serving others. Even now, they live their lives for others and they are a constant model of people who leave their thumb print on the world. However, as a teen, like most teens, I thought they were stupid and I knew everything. I rebelled in a big way and was very self-destructive. I decided that I didn't really want to believe in God or anything else and wanted to do the sex, drugs and rock and roll thing. It was a dark period of my life. It took me years to really come around and really understand God.
I never questioned God existence but mostly if He was good. Not unlike many people I struggled with understanding his goodness and seeing horrible things happen. The question in my mind was always well, where was God? I saw God as indifferent and impersonal. It took me a long time to reconcile my view of life and who God was.
Although I had personal encounters with him I still didn't have a relationship until I was well into my 20s. I believe God saved me from drinking myself into oblivion by making it impossible for me to go to secular college. I joined the workforce right after high school until I realized that I wanted so much more with my life. I wanted to put my thumb print on the world and do something that really matters and benefited more then just myself. So I left the US and my comfy world behind and pursued God and the life I dreamed of.
Here is my small bit of history on life. There are massive amounts of details I could add particularly when it comes to my thoughts and views of God, life and other mysteries but hey what would I write about later?
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